Lately I feel as though I’m working harder than ever, but not really getting anywhere. I’m spinning my wheels rather than moving forward.
Life has become a bit uninspiring and I’m lacking motivation.
I wonder if I’ll ever achieve my goals.
It doesn’t help that what I need in the long term is in direct conflict with what I need right now.
I want to be a writer. If I’m ever going to successfully complete a book and see it published, I need to put in a lot of work. It might take years, decades even.
In the meantime, I have a regular day job in an office in order to support myself. But it can be exhausting working at the computer all day and then coming home to write and blog in the evenings. It’s easy to burn out and lose that creative spark.
If I could, I would spend much of the day thinking about my novel and dreaming up new stories, but I have to suppress that urge to write if I’m going to do my job effectively.
It’s a struggle every day to push down that essential part of myself that wants to create and dream. I expend so much energy ignoring it, that it can be hard to awaken the desire to write when I need it.
I’m always in conflict with myself; my mind is always so full of ideas and dreams and things that need to be done that I don’t know which way to turn first.
It’s often said that if you want to be a writer, you should write every day.
But sometimes you just need to take a break.